Thursday, 29 April 2010
I think this is too cute not to be posted on blog :P
"PIRACY! AAARRRRRRR!!!!!"
Sources: http://stuff.lifetimeblood.info/piracy-is-not-theft.png
Y3:32 pm
I miss home. Hmm.. something I would be embarrassed or would not want to admit about. How I long to leave home when I was a kid, and ironically, now I want to go home. Funny it may sound, but this is what life is, we want things that we can’t get, we don’t appreciate things that is right in front of us. That’s life for you. Welcome to your most complicated life ever.
However, in every life, there is only one hope and love that will never fail us. That is God. He is real. So real, sometimes it’s so hard for me to comprehend. Really. If I’d ever lie about that, I’d be strike by lightning right about now. Okay. I think that’s the worst thing that I want it happen to me. No. I really don’t want to strike by lightning. Sorry God. I’m just trying to prove a point here.
Hope. Hope is something that everyone is searching for. When life comes down to the end of the path where there was no way to turn back. Or when you were walking right at the end of the road, in front of you is just a block of wall and when you turn back, it’ll be too late. Then, where the hope can be when you’re at your weakest point of life. Where that hope can be when you’re so desperate for one. If you were put at a room and find yourself surrounded with four walls and no doors, but you see a window, that is where hope is. The ray of light shining through that window, that is where you find hope and then here comes life.
Everything is not always at the end of everything. It’s always a matter of perception of mind, that sometimes it can be so deceiving yet so convincing and inviting at the same time. But will the deceiving one be the choice that you would want to choose, or do you choose to look at things in another way, and it turns out to be a choice of much better consequence than the deceiving yet inviting one? It’s all a matter of perspective. It’s all a matter of how you think things through. It’s all about matter of how you find joy in the situation you are currently in. it’s all about mind over matter.
God gave us hope for a reason. That when we are at our utmost disappointing moment. Most depressing moment. The most negative moment that you could think of. Even you would think of committing suicide, BUT God is here to give us hope. He did not just created us for no reason and not give us hope and just dump us in the trash hole. God put us in there, so that we could find way out from that trash hole. That is God for you. And why would God want to do that? This is a very simple answer, yet a lot of people, even for myself sometimes can find it so difficult to believe in Him and then we lose hope. THIS IS BECAUSE, HE IS HERE TO TEACH US, TO MOLD US AND MAKE US INTO A BETTER PERSON. If the clay was so badly in shape, the potter will have to break clay and re-molding the from the start. The most precious jewelry is the one that has gone through refining fire, pressure after pressure to become the most beautiful, shiniest diamond that you’d ever see. This is God for you. And this is the love of God and hope, that He has never give up on us. God is love. God is hope. And the greatest gift that God has given to us are faith, hope and love.
Sad to say, without the love of God, without the hope of God, where will we ever find faith, hope and love? From men? I’m so sorry to tell you that ALL men fail but God will never fail us. In fact, you know that was the truth. Even your most trustworthy friend can betray us. Even your most loving parents can fail us. Even your most trustworthy and loving spouses, and u think they would be able to give us hope, love and security, can fail us. And that sometimes can make us to disappointed! WHY? Because they’re not God and they’re still human and they too needed faith, hope and love.
So, where do u stand? Where do you find faith, hope and love? In God or in men?
Alrighty! It’s time for me to get back to my assignment. This is one of my most random post ever. And I typed all these in 10 minutes. LOL! It so totally break my record! :P
Have a good week! Tah!
Y3:05 pm
Saturday, 17 April 2010
*RAWR!*
Seriously, this is the only place where I can place my frustration! keep typing and punching the keyboard on my laptop..
I'M SUPER DUPER EXTREMELY ULTIMATELY PISSED OFF NOW!
No. I'm not kidding. I am seriously pissed off right now, right this second, right this minute, right this hour, right this day. I AM FRIGGIN' PISSED OFF!
logic my ass! what sort of logic is that?! that stupid brainless and false accusation seriously want me to kill that fella! i seriously want to get the knife at the kitchen and just stab him. STAB STAB STAB! *RAWR*
I'm not kidding! He's not only brainless, he's irresponsible and he says that my housemate and I were nagging him.
HELLO?! IF HE USES HIS BRAINCELL JUST A LITTLE BIT, STOP PLAYING THAT FRIGGIN' ZOMBIE GAMES OR WHATEVER GAMES HE'S BEEN PLAYING, WE BOTH WOULDN'T NEED TO SPELL EVERYTHING OUT FOR HIM! Nag my ass! PFFT!!!
He seriously has got to GROW UP!
Y11:04 pm
Thursday, 15 April 2010
YAY!
I'm so HAPPY today! Who would have known?! I passed one of my major assignment! And... the best part was, I not only passed it, I got a credit! whee~
okay okay.. Maybe some of you would have thought that I'm going to say I got a Distinction or a High Distinction. No. I'm not so greedy. In fact, I thought I was going to fail for this assignment. I did put in some effort in it. I may have not slept a few nights just to get it done. But, I procrastinated and gave up half way when I was not supposed to. And I think I didn't put enough effort in it. For me, getting a Credit is a miracle for me. Knowing that sometimes I do fail my assignment. Meh...
So, let me first thank God! YAY! He's done the miracle. Not so much of my strength. He gave me the brain to do it. I just didn't fully utilise the braincells that I have up there. Even if it was my strength, He gave me the strength to do it. Otherwise, I would have died halfway or fall sick and what's so and not. God did it. He showed me miracle when I needed it. In fact, He gave me miracle when I needed it most. I seriously thought I was going to fail. I prayed. I told God to give me a few more days for me to sleep and eat before collecting the paper. So I prayed this: God, please give me the peace to eat and the peace to sleep, and through this peace that you're going to give me, You'll let me know that I'm going to pass my assignment. Well, without me realising it, He did! I thought I was going to have sleepless night. I thought I was not able to eat properly. But He gave me the peace that I have not felt before. A different kind of feeling altogether. It's really hard to describe. You know.. It's like that you're going to pass, but it's the mind over matter thing - that you're going to do shit and won't pass, that sorta thing, but He gave you this peace to overcome the thoughts you have in your head.
He showed me that everything is possible for Him. He reminded me over and over again that I should not rely on my own strength but on His. He assured me that He is a God of Able and He does wonders and miracles, which sometimes I can't comprehend. He is AWESOME!
What more can I say? I fell sick on Sunday night. I was completely recovered on Monday afternoon. Hello? I'm talking about flu and sore throat and fever. This ailment takes days to recover, but I was completely healed overnight. He is truly a God, the God that has secured my salvation in heaven. :)
In short,
God is AWESOME! :D
Y11:18 am
Saturday, 10 April 2010
Today.
Strong, not. Not as strong as I thought.
Emo. Yes. Which I can't really figure out why.
Frighten. Yes. I woke up not sweating, Hobart is too cold for me to sweat. But I woke up scared, frightened and feeling all weird and uncertain. I can't really recall my dream. But the one thing that remain in my brain was this: Repent.
Repent? I was confused. Why repent? Does that mean I have to repent or the whole people in OCF have to repent. I don't know. I wouldn't say that this is a bad dream, but I rather find this dream really weird. I can't really seem to understand the whole dream, which I have already forgotten. Now, I'm still trying to make sense of what this supposed to mean.
Talk about friggin' weird.
Putting that aside.
As I mentioned just now, I seriously thinking to myself, I'm NOT strong after all. I may know that I get discouraged easily but I never knew that I'm that vulnerable. I'm easily irritated. I get annoyed when things don't happen according to my way. I seriously get agitated when my housemates mess up the kitchen and don't clean them up.
But feeling vulnerable, easily bruised, weak? Hello, it's me that you're talking about. After all the blog post of how dependent I was and still am on God, now I'm talking that I'm vulnerable, easily bruised, weak? This is rather strange, 'cause I really do feel that way and not forgetting to mention that I feel so defeated until I don't know what to do for my boyfriend. Ok, not that my boyfriend did something bad, he's a great person and I really do love him. It's just that, basic relationship like taking care of each other, trying to lift each other's burden, encouraging one another etc. This time, I felt so defeated and useless to some extent that I can't do anything for him. All I did was to give him a great, big hug and tell him that everything is going to be ok but actually, we knew that it's not going to go away that soon. Right now, I'm just lying on the bed, typing this and watching him so stressed out with his assignments and yada yada.. :(
I feel so helpless.
Boy, how life can be so complicated to the extent that I felt weak.
Sigh.
Y8:57 pm
Monday, 5 April 2010
I think it's time to revive my blog. :) Collecting thoughts and ideas are simply too important, and it's too not worth it if I lose it. :)
I have just came back from Easter Camp two days ago. Although it was small, it was really cozy and mind-blosing. Not to mention I get to know people well and better now.
As I was collecting my thoughts about the camp, I was really glad that I went there. It was just not a coincident that I agreed to my worship coordinator that I'll play the keyboard for him. It was just not a coincident that I agreed to my bible study coordinator that I'll lead the group. It was not a coincident that I agreed to my treasurer that I'll help her out at the Koorong stall. I finally realised and see how all these things fall into place and this really amazes me.
Being a group leader is not my forte. Perhaps I should say, I've never done any group leading before! I set a very high standard for myself to follow and when I don't meet my criteria, I get discourage very easily. And being a typical Asian, I brought up in a family where I was compared with other people at the same time. Thus, I do compare myself with other people. This has, indeed, a very bad habit of mine. When the Bible Study Coordinator came to approach me, I hesitated for awhile, and I was thinking to myself, ME? How do I even encourage people when I get discourage so easily? *dots* To keep the long story short, I agreed to him anyway.
Helping out at Koorong stall has always been what I wanted to do. To be able to see people and help them clear their minds off when they got too confused of what they wanted to get for their friends. And I love counting money! :D LOL! When the treasurer came up to me and ask, I pleasantly said YES!
Being in the worship team, need I say more? I've always been serving in the worship ministry since I was 7 or 8 years old? I love to serve God in the worship team. Or maybe, I've been too comfortable in the worship ministry. And being in the worship ministry can be really challenging at the same time. Not to say I love challenges, but I've been so used to it that's why I can manage. :)
Now, to play all three roles at the same time in Easter Camp. One word: Challenging. It was so challenging than I can imagine. It was so taxing and tiring that at a certain point, I told God: God, I can't do this. I don't think I can. I've not done SO many task in an event! This is way too much to ask from me.
But! God is so gracious! And He's been so assuring at many times when I start questioning God. I was, yes and indeed, tired. BUT that tiredness was however lifted up without me knowing it! I have made it through the last 2 nights with just 3-4 hours of sleeps. Got up, and make myself coffee and I was all the time awake and energetic. It's definitely not the coffee, because usually coffee can only last me 2-3 hours. But I was so energetic for the whole day until night, even pass midnight. Mind you, I only drank coffee once a day.
This has been a miracle for me. When I think it was impossible, God showed me that He is able and He makes thing possible. I think this is really a testing time for me because OCF (Overseas Christian Fellowship) will be having a convention this coming end of the year. And I definitely will have to rely on God for His strength for me to move on and press on for Him. He's been so wonderful to me.
Will I not forget about Him and the wonderful things that He's done just for me. :)
Y9:35 am
