Monday, 5 April 2010
I think it's time to revive my blog. :) Collecting thoughts and ideas are simply too important, and it's too not worth it if I lose it. :)
I have just came back from Easter Camp two days ago. Although it was small, it was really cozy and mind-blosing. Not to mention I get to know people well and better now.
As I was collecting my thoughts about the camp, I was really glad that I went there. It was just not a coincident that I agreed to my worship coordinator that I'll play the keyboard for him. It was just not a coincident that I agreed to my bible study coordinator that I'll lead the group. It was not a coincident that I agreed to my treasurer that I'll help her out at the Koorong stall. I finally realised and see how all these things fall into place and this really amazes me.
Being a group leader is not my forte. Perhaps I should say, I've never done any group leading before! I set a very high standard for myself to follow and when I don't meet my criteria, I get discourage very easily. And being a typical Asian, I brought up in a family where I was compared with other people at the same time. Thus, I do compare myself with other people. This has, indeed, a very bad habit of mine. When the Bible Study Coordinator came to approach me, I hesitated for awhile, and I was thinking to myself, ME? How do I even encourage people when I get discourage so easily? *dots* To keep the long story short, I agreed to him anyway.
Helping out at Koorong stall has always been what I wanted to do. To be able to see people and help them clear their minds off when they got too confused of what they wanted to get for their friends. And I love counting money! :D LOL! When the treasurer came up to me and ask, I pleasantly said YES!
Being in the worship team, need I say more? I've always been serving in the worship ministry since I was 7 or 8 years old? I love to serve God in the worship team. Or maybe, I've been too comfortable in the worship ministry. And being in the worship ministry can be really challenging at the same time. Not to say I love challenges, but I've been so used to it that's why I can manage. :)
Now, to play all three roles at the same time in Easter Camp. One word: Challenging. It was so challenging than I can imagine. It was so taxing and tiring that at a certain point, I told God: God, I can't do this. I don't think I can. I've not done SO many task in an event! This is way too much to ask from me.
But! God is so gracious! And He's been so assuring at many times when I start questioning God. I was, yes and indeed, tired. BUT that tiredness was however lifted up without me knowing it! I have made it through the last 2 nights with just 3-4 hours of sleeps. Got up, and make myself coffee and I was all the time awake and energetic. It's definitely not the coffee, because usually coffee can only last me 2-3 hours. But I was so energetic for the whole day until night, even pass midnight. Mind you, I only drank coffee once a day.
This has been a miracle for me. When I think it was impossible, God showed me that He is able and He makes thing possible. I think this is really a testing time for me because OCF (Overseas Christian Fellowship) will be having a convention this coming end of the year. And I definitely will have to rely on God for His strength for me to move on and press on for Him. He's been so wonderful to me.
Will I not forget about Him and the wonderful things that He's done just for me. :)
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