Sunday, 16 May 2010
Talk about total weirdness, I've been feeling that ALL day.
Last night, I got into a fight with Marcus. I was so sad. so, so sad. I did not know that I was sooo, flawed. talk about attitude problem. he actually pinpoint everything out, the things that no one knows or no one encountered that before or even if they do know about it, they wouldn't dare to even tell me about it. and yet, he's still so accommodating and still love me the same way. still so forgiving and embrace everything about me. goodness.. i really don't know what to say. touched, perhaps? I'm still searching for that adjective to describe my feeling.
Today. I had a super long day. it was a total long and weird day. I woke up at 9.30am for prayer meeting. it's at my house. i've got no choice. but it was a good decision to make, to pray in the beautiful morning, talking to God, pouring our burdens out. talking to God does make me feel better.
After prayer meeting, we went for brunch. I had this super awesome choc fudge cake. it's so unforgettable. it's so rich with chocolate and fudge all over the cake. i was like a glutton, swallowed everything up!
and yes, the weird part has come.
hhmmm... how do i start?
Today, in the late afternoon, I attended an engagement party. it was so weird! i think it's too lovey dovey to belief. too fairytale for me. too unrealistic. call me cynical. call me pessimistic. the whole relationship between them is just, TOO FAST! she went up to Burnie and they fell in love and in a month time they're ENGAGED?!!!!
not only that, the worst part has yet to come. this guy that i know, was about to date the already engaged girl. and now, he's seeing another girl, whom they just got closer in two weeks time and now he's telling me that he wants to go further than just friend. gee.. what in the world is going on now? not that i want to kill joy la.. but it's too FAKE for me to belief in such a thing.
relationships are getting weirder! i don't know what is real anymore. -.-!! or perhaps, it's just them. that they're ALL either desperate or complicated.
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