Yup! If you know your Geography well.. You will know where I'll be heading!!! For those who are lost, I'm going back to......
Shanghai, China
And yup again! The city of China - Shanghai! Will be leaving in 1 1/2 weeks time! I can't wait! I can't wait! This will be my first time taking the air plane alone. Mom's busy with my cousins' (yea, two cousins) weddings and my brother will be having his SPM. Advantage! Daddy will have his attention all on me! Only me! :D Haha! I'm an attention seeker. Only for my Daddy's attention. Not like I don't have it, I just love it! Nyahahahahahahha! I'm a spoiled lil' Daddy's girl. :P
Finally, I'm free and single again! (: This takes me a lot of courage to write it down okay. Ish... That is also because I'm generous enough to give him away. :D But it's just so irritating to see my friends around me pairing up, while I broke it off, single and alone. Pfft... Be it the other half is near or far, these people should just stay out of my life and stop making me so miserable. *rawr*
Of course, there are some exceptional couples. :D
On second thought, I think it'll be pretty cool to be single again. I'm going to enjoy every moment of it. I'm going to party like there's no tomorrow. Nyahahahahahhaha!!!!!!
By the way...... I...
...Spotted! A man.
Name: (Private & confidential)
Age: mid-twenties
Status: Unknown
Occupation: Unknown but employed
Hot
Tall
Sings
Cooks
Plays the guitar and the electric guitar
A smile that kills a million
Almost the perfect guy I wanted! LOL! If he plays the basketball or he surfs, he'd be the one! I'm just kidding. No, Ashley, D' man is not You! He's yellow from Canada. HAH!
Oh yea! There's another one. I made a friend in Langkawi. LOL!
Oh How 'bout a round of applause? Yeah Standin ovation Ohwoah Yeah Yeah yeah yeah yeah
You look so dumb right now Standin' outside my house Tryin' to apologize You're so ugly when you cry Please Just cut it out
Don't tell me you're sorry, Cause you're not, And baby when I know, You're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show. Really had me goin' But now it's time to go, Curtain's finally closin'. That was quite a show. Very entertainin'. But it's over now. Go on and take a bow.
Grab your clothes and get gone. You better hurry up, Before the sprinklers come on. Talkin 'bout, 'Girl I love you, you're the one.' This just looks like a rerun. Please. What else is on?
And don't tell me you're sorry, Cause you're not. Baby when I know, You're only sorry you got caught.
But you put on quite a show. Really had me goin' But now it's time to go, Curtain's finally closin'. That was quite a show. Very entertainin'. But it's over now. Go on and take a bow.
And the award for the best lie goes to you! For makin' me believe That you could be faithful to me. Let's hear your speech.
How 'bout a round of applause? Standin' ovation
But you put on quite a show. Really had me goin' But now it's time to go, Curtain's finally closin'. That was quite a show. Very entertainin'. But it's over now. Go on and take a bow. But it's over now.
Landed and on the way to the Langkasuka Resort in Cenang Beach...
The Driver
We had chicken rice for lunch.. And James was very proud of it.. 'Cause he had the second best chicken rice in Langkawi.. -___-!!
Back to the hotel and rest.. Went to the beach and a swim in the pool... Back to the hotel room and whilst getting ready for dinner...
Shot 1
Shot 2
LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dinner time!! :D
LOL! Grace looked exhausted..
Day 2
Went for water sports (Pictures are unavailable because they're in Pat's camera) Got back to the hotel again.. And I swam for awhile.. Then getting ready for cable car! :D
While we (Bak, Ashley and me) were on our way to the cable car, We each had an ice cream and Ashley had an extra one! And we were walking around to look for Kampai! Because the counter only closed at 6pm. -_____-!! Made me rush for no reason..
On the way to the top in the cable car..
Yes, we were drinking kampai 710 meter above sea level... :D
The roomies! Me, Bak, Grace & Pat (Grace joined in the second night)
And of course, not forgetting the luckiest guy of all, Ashley, our roomie too! :D
The one and only group photo
On the way down in the cable car!
Legs... :D Lydia felt challenged. LOL!
And then of we went to the lighthouse...
View from the lighthouse..
The Couple.. :D
The girls... (where's Pat?)
There she is! Just in time! :D
The girls..
Posers la all of us! LOL!
...And then we got back to the hotel and getting ready for dinner! :D
While getting ready for dinner...
Typical of what Pearl and Bak do... Camwhore! :D Shot 1
Shot 2
We had dinner... And we went Sun Ba! I did 2 shots of Sambuca in Sunba!!! :D Pat video recorded for me! :D It was awesome.. hehehe......
Day 3
The pictures of Day 3 is unavailable because they're all in Pat's camera again.. hehehe... Here's a glimpse of what we did.. Super rip off island hopping.. Lunch (Super bad) and bought more booze and chocolate.. Dinner... (Suckiest dinner ever!) Visited Helang! :D And of we went for Little Lydia (Lylia)! We had Baileys milk shake. It was super good. :D
Day 4 (Finale)
This is how much we drank! :D And there's even more! But we threw it away on the way when we saw the dustbin. If not it'll be more.
The trip was overall fun. (: and I can't wait to go back there again to have more kampai. This time round, I'm going to bring back those bottles of kampai! :D No, I am not alcoholic. I just so happened to love kampai! :D
To forgive may not be easy, but to forget the things that people have offended you is the hardest part of all. And that is the most trickiest part in life. As I was reading this article from the church bulletin, it really implies to me of where I am now.
Clean-Slate Forgiving
The tricky part about forgiving is the 'forgetting' part. Often we hear ourselves say when doling out forgiveness, "Yes, I've forgiven you, but I don't think I can forget what you did to me." Now, we've heard the message of true forgiveness preached to us too many times not to know that this kind of 'forgiveness' is really a reflection of our own conflict between truly wanting to forgive and not being able to look beyond hurt inflicted.
Forgiving ain't easy. Especially not the Lord's kind of forgiving: complete, clean-slate forgiving. If we're in this place today to worship together, it means we want to be disciples of Christ. Wherever we are on the journey getting there, I believe we sincerely do want to get there. But the way has already been established, grace is provided, and the rules that can't be bent are just not going to be bent, and that's for our own good. Some things we'd better be clear about, and get right: this is the age of grace, when there is yet time, and help from the Holy Spirit, to put right within us what needs to be put right. That often begins with forgiving, yes, the Jesus Christ-type forgiving.
The reason pastors keep telling us this is because the Word of God says so. Yes, it's a tremendously high standard of living. When I've been hurt, all I want to do is shoot the one who has hurt me. It's a good thing I don't live in America, where guns are a dime a dozen. It seems that the secret to true forgiving is once again that simple remedy pastors keep preaching: think about His love. Pastors can preach it, but they can't do it for us. That's really our job. Meditating upon our Father's love for us is the only key I can think of to releasing unsullied forgiveness to those who have hurt us.
Sure, I will never fully understand the extent or nature of the love that led Jesus to willingly, wordlessly, submit to torture and humiliation in my stead. But that love is my salvation, and I treasure it. Without it, I am nothing. For the sake of that love, and with the help of His Holy Spirit, I am sure even I can operate in clean-slate forgiving, meditating upon His sacrifice in order to understand love, not with my mind, but with my heart and spirit.
--Unknown Author
Week after week, I've been hearing the same message and this article came by. It is definitely not a coincidence but this is what God wanted me to do. To forgive and most of all, to forget. And I truly thankful that God has been really gracious to me despite of all my anger and vengeance, He still forgives me and like the clouds in the air, to block the sins that I've done. So, I should be gracious too! If you ask me again what happened to me for the pass few months, all I can say is, I've learned so much, it's time to forget what lies behind and to move on and fulfill the will of God.
No, I am not holy and righteous. To be honest, I am still a human, through and through., just like you. It has not been easy to have people whom you love, betrayed you right in front of your face. But to compare of what Judas has done to Jesus, mine is nothing compared to His.
So, I have forgiven you and forgotten what has happened in the pass. Things may have changed. Time changes all the time, and a person will definitely change if they are strongly influenced. It is whether a person has changed for the better or for the worse. But I know, deep down inside a person, there will always be a good side of it. For we all are made in the image of God. Be it a good person or a bad person you are, I will still love you. (:
May all your dreams come true. May your heart's desire be fulfilled. May Daddy God continue to give you His wisdom as you guide the youths. May Daddy God bless you abundantly!
So much truth has been revealed. The picture is painted so perfectly well and clear.
So much for trusting, I felt so betrayed now. So painful to accept the truth. My heart is broken, so brutal, torn and bruised. It is so hurtful to even think of it. My eyes were tearing. My heart was bleeding. My mind was and still is trying to comprehend all these truth.
So, the truth really reveals by itself. It has been finally revealed. Now I see it all, now is clearly understood. I will not have anything to do with them. From now, tomorrow and for the rest of my life.
While waiting for the photos being processed, there's so much things going on in my mind, especially after reading the quotes from Mother Teresa. There are a few quotes which really struck me, and it keeps me ponder.
"People are unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered. Love them anyway."
--Mother Teresa
I was asking God and still asking God, these kind of people actually hurt you the most for they do things only to their own benefits. Things have to be their own way and everyone must revolve around them. If you don't, then these people will actually try to influence you to. Until and unless you have some conscience and a very strong principle, then, you will actually get out of it. But the end results of getting out of it, they will actually try to screw you over. However, if you don't have strong principles, you will actually get influenced and try your very best to fit in. And it actually hurt to see these people, especially your own beloved friends that are turning into that kind of person just because they wanted to be accepted and fitted in but you know deep down inside them of what they are not.
So, how do you actually like them in the first place to love them anyways?
As I was pin pointing everything that has happened, watching the things that has changed, there is this statement that she quoted:
If you judge people, you will have no time to love them.
--Mother Teresa
I don't like to be judged. But what I was doing, I was actually judging these people. And it's not like I like hating people. To be honest, I hate to hate people. I find it really suffering and depressing. And it is true, once you start pin pointing everything, blaming everyone and start judging people, you actually don't find the time to love them but to hate them more for what they have done to you. I think, what is done has already done. There's no way to turn back time to undo the things that has already happened. Life is full of mystery. Life is full of misery. Everything happens for a reason. I think it's time for me to accept it, to pick myself up, brush off all the dirt and start walking again. Now that I've fallen, now is the time to learned the reason of falling, get up and walk again. It's not the end of the world anyways. If none of these things happened, I would not have grown. I would not be that mature.
I'm glad that I've learned so much. I'm glad that I'm finally out of it. I'm just feeling sad for the people who are conforming and trying to fit into the group of selfish people. I have nothing more to say but to only let them know that I'm always there for them.
I'm back from Langkawi! It was fun. Not too bad for the second time over there. And I drank more this time round. As expected. 'Cause it's a tax free island! And Kampai is damn nice and super duper refreshing, especially in a hot island.
I'm going back there again for the third time in two months time. With different people. And will definitely be more awesome and fun!
More booze, more sun, more sand, more sea, more chocolates, more stoning moments, more stupid moments, more seafood and more booze again! (:
Yep yep yep! This post is especially for YOU!!! (:
I hope I'll be here to celebrate your birthday.. *pouts* But you're away anyways.. *pouts*
It has been my greatest pleasure to have a friend like you. There ain't no other Jillian but you! (: Thank you for always hearing me out, never fail to be there for me whenever I needed one. Thank you for always sparing your time to meet up with me even if you're busy. I'll definitely miss that very much. So much joy, so much tears. So much things that we both shared since high school. So much has changed since high school. But one thing for sure that will never change, that is something that we both hold on dearly and so preciously between us, US!! (:
I love you loads, hun! All the best and best of luck! Stay pretty as you always do and be blessed! (:
Today is a winding road That's taking me to places that I didn't want to go, whoa Today in the blink of an eye I'm holding on to something and I do not know why I tried
I tried to read between the lines I tried to look in your eyes I want a simple explanation; what I'm feeling inside I gotta find a way out Maybe there's a way out
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer Do you know you're unlike any other? You'll always be my thunder, and I said Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors I don't wanna ever love another You'll always be my thunder So bring on the rain And bring on the thunder
Today is a winding road Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know, whoa Today I'm on my own I can't move a muscle and I can't pick up the phone, I don't know
And now I'm itching for the tall grass And longing for the breeze I need to step outside, just to see if I can breathe I gotta find a way out Maybe there's a way out
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer Do you know you're unlike any other? You'll always be my thunder, and I said Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors I don't wanna ever love another You'll always be my thunder So bring on the rain
Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope I'm wrapped up in vines I think I'll make it out but you just gotta give me time Strike me down with lightning Let me feel you in my veins I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain
Today is a winding road That's taking me to places that I didn't want to go, whoa
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer Do you know you're unlike any other? You'll always be my thunder, and I said Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors I don't wanna ever love another You'll always be my thunder And I said
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer Do you know you're unlike any other? You'll always be my thunder So bring on the rain Oh baby bring on the pain And listen to the thunder
And to all my Malaysian friends, Happy Holiday! (:
And also...
Today is the start of the final quarter of the year.
Things definitely have been happening a lot around the year.
So much has happened. So much has changed. So much of happiness. So much of sadness. So much of drama. So much of pain. So much of laughter. So much of tears.
Which brings me to realization that it is a time to reflect, to slow down and start wondering what have I done so far this year. What else is there that I have not done. Then, what is it that I am suppose to do now? I know I still have time. I know it is never been too late to do it. Now, it is the matter of boldness, and also of doing the right thing.
The Orient Pearl Tower
The Bund
Nan Jing Road
Shanghai MagLev Trains (SMT)
Soup-In-The-Bun
Nanxiang Steamed Buns
Shanghai, China
Btw, I was eating Chachos!
Front View
Side View
...And I wanna try the emo pose......
And I tried again...
Screw it!
In the plane...
Landed and on the way to the Langkasuka Resort in Cenang Beach...
The Driver
We had chicken rice for lunch..
Shot 1
Shot 2
Dinner time!! :D
LOL! Grace looked exhausted..
On the way to the top in the cable car..
Yes, we were drinking kampai 710 meter above sea level... :D
The roomies!
And of course, not forgetting the luckiest guy of all, Ashley, our roomie too! :D
The one and only group photo
On the way down in the cable car!
Legs... :D
View from the lighthouse..
The Couple.. :D
The girls...
There she is! Just in time! :D
The girls..
Posers la all of us! LOL!
While getting ready for dinner...
Typical of what Pearl and Bak do...
Shot 2
This is how much we drank! :D
Jared. Trying to kill me with a knife. Why??????
(Yea, It's the one one the left. -___-!! )
Me, D' Birthday Girl, Min Li