Wednesday, 15 October 2008
To forgive may not be easy, but to forget the things that people have offended you is the hardest part of all. And that is the most trickiest part in life. As I was reading this article from the church bulletin, it really implies to me of where I am now.
Clean-Slate Forgiving
The tricky part about forgiving is the 'forgetting' part. Often we hear ourselves say when doling out forgiveness, "Yes, I've forgiven you, but I don't think I can forget what you did to me." Now, we've heard the message of true forgiveness preached to us too many times not to know that this kind of 'forgiveness' is really a reflection of our own conflict between truly wanting to forgive and not being able to look beyond hurt inflicted.
Forgiving ain't easy. Especially not the Lord's kind of forgiving: complete, clean-slate forgiving. If we're in this place today to worship together, it means we want to be disciples of Christ. Wherever we are on the journey getting there, I believe we sincerely do want to get there. But the way has already been established, grace is provided, and the rules that can't be bent are just not going to be bent, and that's for our own good. Some things we'd better be clear about, and get right: this is the age of grace, when there is yet time, and help from the Holy Spirit, to put right within us what needs to be put right. That often begins with forgiving, yes, the Jesus Christ-type forgiving.
The reason pastors keep telling us this is because the Word of God says so. Yes, it's a tremendously high standard of living. When I've been hurt, all I want to do is shoot the one who has hurt me. It's a good thing I don't live in America, where guns are a dime a dozen. It seems that the secret to true forgiving is once again that simple remedy pastors keep preaching: think about His love. Pastors can preach it, but they can't do it for us. That's really our job. Meditating upon our Father's love for us is the only key I can think of to releasing unsullied forgiveness to those who have hurt us.
Sure, I will never fully understand the extent or nature of the love that led Jesus to willingly, wordlessly, submit to torture and humiliation in my stead. But that love is my salvation, and I treasure it. Without it, I am nothing. For the sake of that love, and with the help of His Holy Spirit, I am sure even I can operate in clean-slate forgiving, meditating upon His sacrifice in order to understand love, not with my mind, but with my heart and spirit.
--Unknown Author
Week after week, I've been hearing the same message and this article came by. It is definitely not a coincidence but this is what God wanted me to do. To forgive and most of all, to forget. And I truly thankful that God has been really gracious to me despite of all my anger and vengeance, He still forgives me and like the clouds in the air, to block the sins that I've done. So, I should be gracious too! If you ask me again what happened to me for the pass few months, all I can say is, I've learned so much, it's time to forget what lies behind and to move on and fulfill the will of God.
No, I am not holy and righteous. To be honest, I am still a human, through and through., just like you. It has not been easy to have people whom you love, betrayed you right in front of your face. But to compare of what Judas has done to Jesus, mine is nothing compared to His.
So, I have forgiven you and forgotten what has happened in the pass. Things may have changed. Time changes all the time, and a person will definitely change if they are strongly influenced. It is whether a person has changed for the better or for the worse. But I know, deep down inside a person, there will always be a good side of it. For we all are made in the image of God. Be it a good person or a bad person you are, I will still love you. (:
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Y1:12 pm
Monday, 13 October 2008
Betrayed. Brutal. Bruised. Broken. Torn. Hurtful.
So much truth has been revealed. The picture is painted so perfectly well and clear.
So much for trusting, I felt so betrayed now. So painful to accept the truth. My heart is broken, so brutal, torn and bruised. It is so hurtful to even think of it. My eyes were tearing. My heart was bleeding. My mind was and still is trying to comprehend all these truth.
So, the
truth really reveals by itself. It has been finally revealed. Now I see it all, now is clearly understood. I will not have anything to do with them. From now, tomorrow and for the rest of my life.
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Y1:17 pm
Saturday, 11 October 2008
While waiting for the photos being processed, there's so much things going on in my mind, especially after reading the quotes from Mother Teresa. There are a few quotes which really struck me, and it keeps me ponder.
"People are unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered. Love them anyway."
--Mother Teresa
I was asking God and still asking God, these kind of people actually hurt you the most for they do things only to their own benefits. Things have to be their own way and everyone must revolve around them. If you don't, then these people will actually try to influence you to. Until and unless you have some conscience and a very strong principle, then, you will actually get out of it. But the end results of getting out of it, they will actually try to screw you over. However, if you don't have strong principles, you will actually get influenced and try your very best to fit in. And it actually hurt to see these people, especially your own beloved friends that are turning into that kind of person just because they wanted to be accepted and fitted in but you know deep down inside them of what they are not.
So, how do you actually like them in the first place to love them anyways?
As I was pin pointing everything that has happened, watching the things that has changed, there is this statement that she quoted:
If you judge people, you will have no time to love them.
--Mother Teresa
I don't like to be judged. But what I was doing, I was actually judging these people. And it's not like I like hating people. To be honest, I hate to hate people. I find it really suffering and depressing. And it is true, once you start pin pointing everything, blaming everyone and start judging people, you actually don't find the time to love them but to hate them more for what they have done to you. I think, what is done has already done. There's no way to turn back time to undo the things that has already happened. Life is full of mystery. Life is full of misery. Everything happens for a reason. I think it's time for me to accept it, to pick myself up, brush off all the dirt and start walking again. Now that I've fallen, now is the time to learned the reason of falling, get up and walk again. It's not the end of the world anyways. If none of these things happened, I would not have grown. I would not be that mature.
I'm glad that I've learned so much. I'm glad that I'm finally out of it. I'm just feeling sad for the people who are conforming and trying to fit into the group of selfish people. I have nothing more to say but to only let them know that I'm always there for them.
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