While waiting for the photos being processed, there's so much things going on in my mind, especially after reading the quotes from Mother Teresa. There are a few quotes which really struck me, and it keeps me ponder.

I was asking God and still asking God, these kind of people actually hurt you the most for they do things only to their own benefits. Things have to be their own way and everyone must revolve around them. If you don't, then these people will actually try to influence you to. Until and unless you have some conscience and a very strong principle, then, you will actually get out of it. But the end results of getting out of it, they will actually try to screw you over. However, if you don't have strong principles, you will actually get influenced and try your very best to fit in. And it actually hurt to see these people, especially your own beloved friends that are turning into that kind of person just because they wanted to be accepted and fitted in but you know deep down inside them of what they are not.

So, how do you actually like them in the first place to love them anyways?

As I was pin pointing everything that has happened, watching the things that has changed, there is this statement that she quoted:

I don't like to be judged. But what I was doing, I was actually judging these people. And it's not like I like hating people. To be honest, I hate to hate people. I find it really suffering and depressing. And it is true, once you start pin pointing everything, blaming everyone and start judging people, you actually don't find the time to love them but to hate them more for what they have done to you. I think, what is done has already done. There's no way to turn back time to undo the things that has already happened. Life is full of mystery. Life is full of misery. Everything happens for a reason. I think it's time for me to accept it, to pick myself up, brush off all the dirt and start walking again. Now that I've fallen, now is the time to learned the reason of falling, get up and walk again. It's not the end of the world anyways. If none of these things happened, I would not have grown. I would not be that mature.

I'm glad that I've learned so much. I'm glad that I'm finally out of it. I'm just feeling sad for the people who are conforming and trying to fit into the group of selfish people. I have nothing more to say but to only let them know that I'm always there for them.

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