Dear Daddy God,

I thank You for giving me such a wonderful uncle. The one and only that have took care of me and my family, especially the days when I needed a father. I am thankful, through thick and thin that my family went through, this lovely uncle of mine has never left us but helped us through our most difficult time in our lives. I am thankful that he is now saved with You!

Dear Lord, the doctors said that he might not be able to make it till Sunday. But, this day, dear Lord, before You take him home, I pray, by Your grace and mercy, that may You sustain his life for a few days or weeks until You think the day is best for him to leave. I know this is a very greedy wish, but at least let him get through the first few days of Chinese New Year where everyone, all the family members, relatives and friends who are on their way back be able to come to visit him before You take him away. Or at least, let his very own heart's desire be fulfilled before You take him home with You. I know, by faith, that You will perform miracles, as how You have healed the sick, raised the dead and cast out demons. As how You have answered all my prayers. In Your time, Lord. May it be in Your time. 'Cause only You know what is best for Your child.

Lastly, dear Lord, that may You continue to give him strength and peace in his heart. Fill him, Lord with Your love, the joy and the peace of God. May you cover him with the precious blood of Jesus from the top of his physical head to the tip of the toe of the spirit man. Send guardian angels to guard over him, and the room that he is staying now. I also pray, dear Lord, that the nurses will be alert and grant the doctors who are in charged the wisdom to treat him.

I commit everything into Your hand. My heart will not be troubled nor will I be afraid because as what you have promised me in Your word, the peace of God is with me (John 15:27). I claim every promises that You have given. Also, I thank You, Lord for friends who are always there to encourage me. May You bless them too!

In Jesus Name, I pray, Amen.

Y2:42 am

I'm lazy and I'm stressed.



Does anyone want to pack for me?



I'll buy you ice-cweam...... :D

Y4:22 pm

She is living in DENIAL.

She denies the fact that she's leaving in LESS than a month.

She denies the fact that she has to pack her stuff like, NOW.

She denies the fact that she's turning LEGAL.

She denies the fact that she's going to MISS her beloveds.

She denies the fact that she's SAD.

She denies the fact that it's going to be torturous to go through Valentine's Day ALONE this year.

She denies the fact that she has been sleeping LESSER lately.



Bla bla bla...



(...and the list adds on)



Well, practically she's in a HUGE state of denial.

Y4:24 pm

Hello to all my beloveds!



Thank you all for your lovely messages and your heartfelt concern. I'm feeling a lot better now. Still a little bit of traumatized, but so much better after what had happened.



To the people who is wondering what happened, I would say, that day was an eventful day and well, I started off my year with a "bang!".



On Monday, we were supposed to have a road trip to Semenyih and then to Broga for good food. So, I was the driver that day, I have to pick my friends up and then head off for food.



After I picked up Pat from Kota Damansara, I went passed the toll entering NKVE highway.



In front, I saw a huge ass lorry so I was trying to cut it. When I finally did it, YAY! I didn't realised that I was at a cornering! WTF?! I swirved to my left and I really don't know what happened, it's either I'll bang straight to the barrier on my right, or swirve more to my left. So I THINK I swirved too much to my left or the road itself was oily, I lost control of the car, I made a 360 degree of spinning and banged straight into the barrier on the left side of the road and I spinned another 180, I hit the back of my car. After my car finally stopped, the lorry which I overtook drove passed.



What I saw was, the front bumper flew off, the whole radiator was completely smashed, the lights were crashed, the bonet was folded into half and I saw a small part of the engine flew out.



It was rather a traumatising one and no one can understand how I actually survived from that accident without a scratch. Nope, no scratch at all. I also didn't hit my head or what so ever. Not even Pat. I am perfectly fine. We are perfectly fine.



I really want to thank God for His divine protection. If I didn't pray that day before I leave the house, I don't think I'd be here now, telling you this. Can you imagine, I was literally spinning right in front of the lorry and when my car finally stopped, the lorry just drove passed me. Many things could have happened, what if this, what if that, but I thank God, NONE of it happened! And I also want to thank God for sending people to me, telling me what to do, not to sign documents and say "NO" to the toll truck!



Thank You, Lord, for always protecting me. I might have been lying on my bed now, but I'm not! I can still eat, sleep, walk and jump around.



As what Tubby told me, I'm always the dramatic one, and I started off my year with a "bang!". So, how have your new year been treating you? ;)



Once again, I would want to thank you all for your messages and your concern. I'm so sorry if I freaked you out. I'm perfectly fine now. At least Pwincess Tatiana has been accompanying me. :D



Lastly, I don't think I have said it enough, I truly and sincerely LOVE each and everyone of you very, very much!



So take care, be alert and DRIVE CAREFULLY!



If you wish to bring me out for ice-cream, I'm always ready. You just have to pick me up. ;)

Y10:07 pm

Zuan

HAH! You're the very FIRST to turn 21!! You're officially OLD!!!!!! :Pp



Anyways, it's a blessing to have you such an amazing friend. Everything that I wanted to say is all in the love letter. LOL!!!



Once again, all the best in everything that you do! I love you, as always! So, take care kay!

Y4:13 am

How is the new year treating you? I hope you have been having a lot of fun!



A new year, a new beginning for me! As I will be leaving for Tassy very, very soon. Yes, soon enough to feel the stress from your parents about the packing, accommodation etc etc etc. In fact, I'm actually in denial that I'm leaving THAT soon! All of the sudden, I actually feel very, very left out from my gang and church. Things are not going to be the same for me. I have to start re-adapting, not only changing the the date from 2008 to 2009, but also the place, the weather, the people. All these are enough to actually freak me out! There are so many uncertainties which makes me feel so insecure, so unsure of what will happen. The loneliness is creeping in so slowly and it makes me feel afraid that I can't handle everything of it.



Okay! Emo much. I think it's enough for now. LOL!! Anyhoos, Grace is back! Lydia, Jill and Pat will be back TOMORROW! Which means, more parties to come! Whee~~ :D

Y2:32 am